my words

The words that I use sometimes tend to be nothing.  They turn out to be something when they hit the pages from my mind.  I can change them to fit into certain patterns.  I will evoke emotion in tender silence and perfect pleasure. Who knew that I could be this person in a moment with you.  Surely I did not miss that about myself, I did not know it was there to start with. Slow the tide that binds the letters, slow the sounds that follow your lips.  Who knew I could be this perfect in a word written on paper.  There is times when I yearn for expression, they tend to walk slowly by.  How does time go by when a clock only has arms, they say?

There were moments when I could hear my own voice, it was trapped in my mind.  Crazy letters form in handwriting that was never mine.  Pages dripped with blood from my soul and it killed my hands to feel its beauty, so that blood can be for life and not for hate.

I will hear my words when the morning comes, I will cry my tears for days gone by.  I will never be sorry for my own pain and I will never say sorry for where I have been.  Stronger are my words now, perfect are their creation.  I am thankful for what I can say, in my mind, in my word, written on paper for the world to see.

I can’t wait to be in line

I am so close to being done with my novel I can smell it. Four and a half chapters then everyone is either dead or happy to be alive;)  The nightmares are so intense now from my own story that I haven’t slept in about a week, so this weekend is the weekend to finish the deamon I call my imagination off.  Then it is time for my kiddies book I am so happy at least my mind can take a nap from ppl dying and getting raped and what else kinda hell I like putting my characters through.

I am still test driving this blog thingie mabob before I start posting my poetry.  Lets see how it goes.

Ok bye for now:)

Valentines cake

Today was kinda amazing and strange all at once. In my 27 years no one has ever sent me flowers that got delivered.
Seeing that I have no bf(wish I did, not some kinda weird batgirl who does not want loving) I did not expect any flowers at all. But alas the universe showed me such amazing pleasure today.

I woke up kinda thinking ag ewwwww I hate valentines day ppl all in love and bla bla*puke* I am a bit bitter, yes I am, I will be honest. Ok moving on. So I received two bunches of flowers today. One from a guy and the other from my best friend. I still wont like valentines day but I can kinda see why ppl get all goooglee eyed when they get flowers. It makes you feel special and that someone took time to think of you.
Tonight I am going to visit my sister and we will have take aways and talk shize, her husband is away on a trip. So me and her and her little girl……FUN……so it is in the end of the day a day for love and I do love them, so I ain’t no looser for having no date on valentine’s day….hahahahaha..

Ok my piece of cheese spent.
Have a good what ever you have tonight……grrrrr….

Moving house

Well, this is now my first post on Weblog or WordPress which ever tickle your fancy. I use to use another blogger, don’t think I can say the name for hell knows what lawsuit’s might come my way. Anyways the reason for moving work blocked the other one and honestly I was starting to get real bad with drawl, my fingers even seized up……hihihih….ok I know thats just funny to me but hey, this is my world anyway.

Now I am gonna test drive this for a little while and decide if I want to move all my 300 billion other blog posts over and do I just want to make this for poetry only or mix the funky and serous side of me in one blog….grrrrr…so much to think about.  Lets see how it goes…..watch out wordthingie mabob here I come.:)

well till the words follow me here again cheerio:)